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Angst... TT_TT

Wed Oct 21, 2009, 1:33 PM
I'm pretty down right now, so I'm not so focused on Pictures or Videos right now.
It's lots of things happening in my life right now... I'm just so afarid!!! >___<

I guess I'll regret tellig you this, but I feel like it's fair to you (my fans and friends) to know...

In my last journal I told you how a couple (Rebecka and Sebastian) called me a whore.
Well, I told the princepal, and as I expected, it got worse.
At the monday, my teacher took me and Rebecka to "talk".
She denied it... (fucking slut)
and after that, she went straight to her girly fucked up bitches and told them what happen, but she lied to them too. -_-
So they started to walk around the whole school telling people a complete lie about me!
And they once did it when I was standing right afront of them.
After that the last lession began...

I couldn't hold it... I started to cry in the classroom... and tears just wounldn't stop... maybe because it was something I've been holding in for over three years.
Karoline helped me to the school welfare officer. I like her, she's nice.
We talked for a while.
Then I had to go, cuz else I would miss the bus.
At the way back, I met a girl in my class (we never talk... =/) and she wondered why I was so sad... and I was all like; OMG!! SOMEONE CARES!!? O_o

I told her...
And at the way to the bus, a guy... I... might... like... a... little... XD
he smiled and me and said hi... and yeah... ^-^'

At home, I called my oldest beloved sister and we talked for a hour.
I wasn't hungry, cuz my I was nervous and scared... so I actually didn't WANT to eat anything, but I did as well.
And so, I told my mom.

The next day, they waitied for me outside the bus. I ignored them and raised the volym on my mp3.
Same for Karoline.
I went mad, cuz they went on her! She haven't done anything! I was the one who was called a whore and I was the one who reported them to the police. Not her!
I couldn't really concentrate on my school work. I was in my own thoughts and didn't respond sometimes! >___>''
Karoline had to talk for me...

I'm scared to walk out from the classrooms and meet their stare.
I thought it was over...
But also, Rebeckas retarded bf, stopped and talked to me.
He wondered why I reported him to the cops. And I told him cuz he called me a whore, but he denied it!
He's a real asshole.
I'm just afraid he will hit me or beat me up.

The next day, I stayed home.
I felt bad psychic, and that makes me feel bad physics...
Sometimes, I wonder what I'm so afraid of... and sometimes I feel like killing myself... again.
But those thoughts were gone for a long time ago, and I don't want them to come back.
I just want to get the hell out of that school and start at that animation school far away.

My teacher called me.
Normally I hate her, but she was pretty out of character.
She told me that three of the teachers took the basterds to a serioud talk... I'm pretty skeptical about it... I just hope it wont make it worse...

So, that's why I doesn't feel so well right now...

  • Mood: Neglect
  • Listening to: All My Love
  • Reading: Not much...
  • Watching: TV/movies/videos
  • Playing: Zelda Phantom Hourglass
  • Eating: Nothing...
  • Drinking: Nothing...

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  • Current Residence: My room in my bed
  • Interests: Draw, write, animate, friends and anime/manga/japan
  • Favourite movie: The Green mile
  • Favourite band or musician: t.A.T.u, Eminem, 2pac, Within Temptations, Evanescense, Vocaloids and those kind of music XD
  • Favourite genre of music: All kinds
  • Favourite artist: Many, like Leggy, Zayane, Miimloo and Chii
  • Favourite poet or writer: Miimloo X3
  • Favourite photographer: Miimloo again O_o
  • Favourite style of art: MANGA!!! what else? X3
  • Shell of choice: Shells with pearls...
  • Skin of choice: Dark skin
  • Favourite game: Resident Evil, Cat Woman, Stolen, Sudeki and Zelda
  • Favourite gaming platform: GameCube, Xbox and PS
  • Favourite cartoon character: Too many >__<
  • Personal Quote: Mariku-Sama, Onegai... Batsu Gemu XD (Inside Joke)

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Comments


:iconpunkkat56:
would you like to enter my contest? ^^[link]

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after i answer your questions verify your panties , my husband maybe stoled them...or maybe me? :iconicameplz:
:iconblackworufu:
Nah, dunno... I'm no good at coloring ^-^''

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Dun Let Em' Say You Ain't Beautiful <3
:iconpunkkat56:
but i ry think you are :(

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after i answer your questions verify your panties , my husband maybe stoled them...or maybe me? :iconicameplz:
:iconreowns:
hi = D

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=D me is no caffine with think no yeah=D i like .......my friends?
:iconmastertubaman:
>Tackle< HI WOLFY!!!!

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Every downfall in life has a lesson to offer. Utilize that lesson and save someone else from falling down in that same rut.
:iconblackworufu:
HI TUBA!!! ONLY ONE VOICE LEFT! BUT SHE DOESN'T RESPOND! SO I'VE BEGUN WITH PART 3 OwO WHAT's UP, JIM, I mean... TUBA!!? XD

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Dun Let Em' Say You Ain't Beautiful <3
:iconmastertubaman:
Which voice actor is it?
And YAY! PART THREE!!!

WEll, I haz a tablet nao so I can drawz stuff faster XD
Umm, other then that, in pre-production of my animated movie.

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Every downfall in life has a lesson to offer. Utilize that lesson and save someone else from falling down in that same rut.
:iconblackworufu:
I finally got the last voice, I can be done with Bloody Mary pt 2-3 now! =D But my computer is so fucked up, I cant even animate on part 3... >__> and i wont get a computer memory before christmas... noooh~! TT_TT

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Dun Let Em' Say You Ain't Beautiful <3
:iconmastertubaman:
Oooowwwwwwwww. . .
I'd me more anxious in getting more HARDDRIVE space as well (wink wink)

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Every downfall in life has a lesson to offer. Utilize that lesson and save someone else from falling down in that same rut.
:iconwilliambirkinzbaby6:
[link] Here, for you. :'D

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My life lessons.
:icondumbblond101:
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:iconluckyjo:
BLAAAACCCCCKKKKYYYY! Hai~! (lol i'm such a stalker)

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Liar, Liar, plans for hire.
:iconblackworufu:
BLACKY!!!? O_o''

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Dun Let Em' Say You Ain't Beautiful <3
:iconluckyjo:
Hehe sorry... Sheesh, i'm so rude... sorry for calling you blacky.

I'M TOO MUCH OF A STALKER. BWWWWWAAAAAH!

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:icondumbblond101:
I really like your art how did you get so good
Was it just practice O_o it can't be just practice *looks at her* was it

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