I'm pretty down right now, so I'm not so focused on Pictures or Videos right now.
It's lots of things happening in my life right now... I'm just so afarid!!! >___<

I guess I'll regret tellig you this, but I feel like it's fair to you (my fans and friends) to know...

In my last journal I told you how a couple (Rebecka and Sebastian) called me a whore.
Well, I told the princepal, and as I expected, it got worse.
At the monday, my teacher took me and Rebecka to "talk".
She denied it... (fucking slut)
and after that, she went straight to her girly fucked up bitches and told them what happen, but she lied to them too. -_-
So they started to walk around the whole school telling people a complete lie about me!
And they once did it when I was standing right afront of them.
After that the last lession began...

I couldn't hold it... I started to cry in the classroom... and tears just wounldn't stop... maybe because it was something I've been holding in for over three years.
Karoline helped me to the school welfare officer. I like her, she's nice.
We talked for a while.
Then I had to go, cuz else I would miss the bus.
At the way back, I met a girl in my class (we never talk... =/) and she wondered why I was so sad... and I was all like; OMG!! SOMEONE CARES!!? O_o

I told her...
And at the way to the bus, a guy... I... might... like... a... little... XD
he smiled and me and said hi... and yeah... ^-^'

At home, I called my oldest beloved sister and we talked for a hour.
I wasn't hungry, cuz my I was nervous and scared... so I actually didn't WANT to eat anything, but I did as well.
And so, I told my mom.

The next day, they waitied for me outside the bus. I ignored them and raised the volym on my mp3.
Same for Karoline.
I went mad, cuz they went on her! She haven't done anything! I was the one who was called a whore and I was the one who reported them to the police. Not her!
I couldn't really concentrate on my school work. I was in my own thoughts and didn't respond sometimes! >___>''
Karoline had to talk for me...

I'm scared to walk out from the classrooms and meet their stare.
I thought it was over...
But also, Rebeckas retarded bf, stopped and talked to me.
He wondered why I reported him to the cops. And I told him cuz he called me a whore, but he denied it!
He's a real asshole.
I'm just afraid he will hit me or beat me up.

The next day, I stayed home.
I felt bad psychic, and that makes me feel bad physics...
Sometimes, I wonder what I'm so afraid of... and sometimes I feel like killing myself... again.
But those thoughts were gone for a long time ago, and I don't want them to come back.
I just want to get the hell out of that school and start at that animation school far away.

My teacher called me.
Normally I hate her, but she was pretty out of character.
She told me that three of the teachers took the basterds to a serioud talk... I'm pretty skeptical about it... I just hope it wont make it worse...

So, that's why I doesn't feel so well right now...